Just for the record, xanga will go down. If you wanna get a hold of us here's how:

AIM: blazeangelg (That's for Twinkle) We're always on that one.

AIM: ditzyfriend (That's only my user) Hit or miss, message Twinkle. Really? It's more like.. The alter AIM... But you all pull when I am on mine... Anyway... So there's little use for you having your own these days...

Skype: blazeangelg we're barely on it, but if we have a reason to use it, we'll be there

email: blazeangelg@gmail.com

If you find another blogging site like Xanga, we'll be there. Tumblr didn't even have options to change fonts on a webposting and you had to add a third party thinger just to add comments! What?????? That's nut job crazy.

Woah, woah, woah. Stop saying I'm crazy. Martha Stewart said I could pay her in lava rocks to do some renovations in our head. We have plenty lava rocks to go around. I should message her. I haven't heard from her in a a week.

... Stop yanking... ... And that sounds absolutely crazy... Xander... It's been like a day... And that was not Martha Stewart... It was the love of my universe... It's too early for this shit... I must go back to sleep... Alters are pulling already...

I was not done, Twinkle. And Tumblr didn't even let you have full cutomization of your blog! We need colors when we blog. Or else people will be very confused with us switching. And the HTML to change the colors on the blog posting were not working! DUH!!!! No brainer, say no to Tumblr. Most of the postings are stolen photos from different users anyway. You're not missing much.

No one loves me. Everyone only wants to read this beca ... Going to sleep... If I had any sense... I wouldn't even post this... If I don't... Someone will be pissy about it...

Goodnight, honey.

 clint, haven, saphira, leena, xander, sammael, charity, lacey, dominic, shawn ashley

Blue Balls, Twinkle and I tried Tumblr for about 5 minutes. We were unimpressed. We closed our site down. We got it good in Xangaland.

clint, haven, saphira, leena, xander, sammael, charity, lacey, dominic, shawn ashley

i wanna write about you sonny boy, but i am so sick of even thinking about you at this point. i am goddamned gonna do it anyway. i want you to goddamned sit down and think about a few goddamned things. i want yah to ask yourself why nutters has sammael running around in her head. then i want you to sit down and think about why you had the same goddamned thing running around in your head. you got a good answer right, sonny boy? it's because of some self hatred bullshit right? what created that goddamned self hatred sonny boy? you know what i noticed? it was around the time when you goddamned realized how much you loved that girl and wanted to goddamned be with her. so you know what that means, right sonny boy? of course you do. now i want you to think real hard about the past couple of months and why you all the sudden decided to be a pussy and disappear into that head of yours and allow all these dumb fuck alters to front all the time. your anp says it's because you're bored with life. you know what i notice? you come out and demand front whenever she's around. whatcha think that means sonny boy? you cry and cuddle a christmas present from her that you won't even goddamned open because you say you don't deserve it. you say you won't spent time with her because all your alters would fight for front. you know why that is sonny boy? because they all wanna be around the girl that's helped you and because they all goddamned love her. if you knew what you shouldn't do, your ass wouldn't have been on a fucking bridge threatening to jump off of it if she died. i don't care if you're goddamned emotionally retarded or not, it takes a true total retard to not see who you should goddamned be with and to keep wasting our time with the same bullshit that, i'm too broken to be with her, but i'm not too broken to be with my other girlfriends from the past, i'm not too broken to know what i should do and how i can do it. you're just making more excuses to not do it. endless goddamned fucking excuses that i'm tired of hearing and that your alters keep on being conflicting about.

now let's goddamned look at it the other way sonny boy. you know why she was running around the country sick as a fucking dog? because she can't handle being without you. do you goddamned know who she wants to talk to and the reason why she never logs off her account? it's because she spends it waiting for you. do you know why she has sammael running around her goddamned head? it's for the same reason you did, except hers is a lot more compounded and it ain't gonna go away on it's own. we said you could save her. you know exactly how you could save her but you ain't gonna. you're just gonna be a flake and hide behind your goddamned broken parts. guess what sonny boy? we're goddamned broken just like you are but we ain't the dumb asses running from it all to keep ourselves miserable. you know why she doesn't get attached to people anymore? because they always goddamned hurt her and say things, but don't goddamned show what they tell her. she goddamned keeps them far away because they always goddamned leave her one way or another. you goddamned hurt when your last girlfriend up and left you, imagine how she goddamned feels right now. you're leaving without actually leaving. she's in this boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with you except you're the one getting all the benefits. you get that conversation you long for, and you go off and fuck whoever you want. she gets the conversation she wants half the time and then you get pulled and disappear and leave her feeling guilty majority of the time. you're just like everyone else sonny boy and she's too retarded to let you go because she goddamned loves you. but the thing is you don't really goddamned love her. if you did, we wouldn't have to beg you to be with her. if you did, i wouldn't be typing this goddamned useless blog were i'm telling you shit that should be goddamned obvious and she doesn't wanna say but she thinks about. and here you are, saying you goddamned love her and wanna marry her, have her children, got a house all picked out but it ain't nothing to you sonny boy because woman will just goddamned believe anything you say.

someone we both know said that you need her and that someone that special who means that much to you only comes around once in a lifetime, if you're goddamned lucky, and you should give it up and do it. you know you should sonny boy. we both goddamned need, want and love each other. stop saying no and goddamned give it a chance. she ain't ever gonna hurt you like what's her pussy did. we know you ain't lying. she goddamned knows and understands what she gets with the whole package. she wants to try sonny boy. that should be enough for you to want to try too. you goddamned love her sonny boy? get off your ass and prove it to her or goddamned throw us goddamned to the curb. her loving you doesn't goddamned hurt her. what does is the fact that she knows you both want more, need more, and your inaction is destroying her, creating self hatred, guilt, and undeserving feelings. you don't want her feeling those things? then don't goddamned reject her and take those same feelings that you have regarding her and love them away. she'd goddamned make you feel like the most loved, cared for, and deserving person on the planet. she'd be your goddamned everything if you'd just let her sonny boy. so get over your feelings about your goddamned self and let her in. you're pushing her away without actually even noticing. you don't wanna goddamned lose her? keep what you're doing sonny boy and it's gonna be inevitable. peace, love, and aspercreme.

clint, haven, gabriel, saphira, leena, xander, sammael, charity, lacey, dominic, shawn ashley

Woah, woah, woah. That is one very crazy girl, and bloody angel. Where o where did my neighbor go? He has my car and house keys. If I can get out of hell and back into purgatory, I will. After all, we are all dead down here anyway. We can move to purgatory, can't we?

Screw Charity, marry me. Fuck Oscar.

I'm asexual and castrated.

And Red.

Marry Oscar, or Red, or even Skyler. Someone sexual.

That's ok. Let me explore my sexuality and we'll be ok. They won't marry me. They won't even marry Twinkle. I mean, who wouldn't? She's the whole damn package. Minus us. We kinda mess it up for her in a big way. We're a lot of baggage.

Adorable statement... "We're a lot of baggage."

Baby, it's the damn truth. No sane person will ever be with her. Even an insane stable person knows better than to touch this. While you might be too broken for total sanity, total stability, you have your moments. We will never be sane, or stable either. We are broken too. Let us put both of our broken, insane, unstable pieces in a blender and work through it together, baby.

We don't wanna be like Psycho Shrink. We won't keep begging you to be with us. We love you. Obviously, it's not enough for you. Sorry we're not good enough. We want to be. You are for us. I wish you'd see it.

And for the record, you loving her didn't cause her pain. She enjoyed every second she got with you and the others. What did, was the fact that you do love her and you won't do a damn thing about it. It tortures her because she sees so much in you that you don't see in yourself and she would rather spend the rest of her life trying to get you to see it, then let you throw it all away because of it. The difference is that Twinkle thinks the same thing, except she's willing to try, to be a better person, for you. She'd never leave you. She's gone, but you really needed to know this, baby. You'd rather not try then even bother risk knowing. I hate being main in this system. I wonder if you feel like you lost a part of yourself? I wonder if she was your soul mate? I wonder how you feel, baby? Did you ever need or want her enough to actually take a chance with a good life and live it with her? Or were you always going to settle for less than the best? She was special. Would you have taken the chance of the unknown?

I know she would have, baby. I wish you would have. She could have been better, with you. Not without you.

We're in a psych unit. It's been a week now. We're going stir crazy. I hate everyone in our head except Alessia and Clinton.I hope the next six months come and go fast if it doesn't end before then. People been nice though, they've been talking to me and stuff. They think I can handle everything so good because I'm the emotionless one. I feel, sometimes. I wasn't meant to handle everything though. Twinkle was strong, she dealt with a lot. I don't know what to do without her. She kinda was like my good inner voice of reason. She was the one with a conscience, you know? But yeah, people have been nice to me. They've been trying to keep us company. It still feels really empty and lonely. We have nothing left to live for without her. We existed for her, and for her alone. We need her back or we are all going to fade away. We may even get absorbed and spit back out as different alters. I don't know what is going to happen to our system. I hate this and not knowing. At least with Twinkle you knew she'd come back. She may not have always been the 26 year old, medical genius with a kindred soul, but she always came back as close to herself as she was able to. It would always get fixed eventually some way or another. This is completely different. There's no going back. Everything about it is wrong.

Haven, Clinton, Alessia, Gabriel, Charity, Saphira, Xander, Lacey, Sammael,Phoenix.

I do not understand illogical broken... Thinking.

I have more than enough irrational thoughts to... Make up for most people... But all of my irrational thoughts cannot seem to beat someone's one irrational thought...

I have been thinking... A lot... The past few days... And these thoughts... Have crossed my mind.. Because I figured out some great mathematical equation.

You once told me that you like to hurt things you find beautiful... And for a time now... I have been told.. That you simply cannot be with someone you love... 

I cannot grasp this concept... Because I have helped your system more.. Than anyone has... And probably ever will... Or I could be completely wrong... I seem to be told one thing, and then I am told the opposite by someone else... I simply don't know... Who to believe any longer... Or if I can trust any of you... At all... 

I have been labelled a weakness... By someone in your system...  And for you to want to kill your weakness... Seems... Contrary to what it really is... What I really am... 

I am your strength. 

You would kill the one thing that makes you better... Because... Your angel is... Right... You cannot handle love... 

So you would kill it... Instead of having the person you want... Help you to understand it.

I want this to be perfectly clear... 

I would never leave you... Never... Ever.

I have tolerated more from you already than anyone probably ever will... If that is not proof enough... I don't know what will be... For you, love... There is nothing you are forcing me to do..., it's something I want to do.

I cannot comprehend how you could love me... And then proceed to want me dead... But on the same hand... I could kill myself... And you would kill yourself to be with me... It makes absolutely no sense.

The thing that does make sense... Is that the closer I do get... To you... The more distant you become... I deal with your alters... More than I get to hear from you... I get why... But, love, it doesn't need to be that way...

I believe... I could help you... More than anyone could ever help you... I have the magic fairy dust... Laced with unicorn glitter... To make it a reality... You won't let me... Or... 

Either that... I am too delusional... And I really thought that I was special enough... Where you would never think you are undeserving... And would want to destroy the one thing... That makes you happy... I am sorry you want to be miserable... If that is the case... There is another possibility.. 

Or.. I allowed you too close... To me... And allowed you to manipulate me... Into believing whatever it was... You had to tell me... 

I don't know which... 

But nonetheless, my broken soul is still craving you... And I want you to devour it...

I love you, eternally.